Hello my friend,
I would love to share an article i had published in Living Now magazine – Australias largest holistic magazine. The article is about my life and the journey i took to become happy. 🙂
Here is the direct link to the article – http://www.livingnow.com.au/advertise/articles/22-living-and-learning/4900-dark-clouds-silver-linings.html
First, here is last weeks quote –
“When the Solar Plexus Chakra is blocked or leaking, you may feel easily swayed by the ideas and thoughts of others. It will create a sense of wanting to fit in to make others like you.” from Healing Path.
Plus last weeks affirmation -“I support my essence with kind and caring words, thoughts and actions.”
Write It, Say It, Believe It, Live It!
Have an awesome day and please enjoy my story,
🙂 🙂 🙂
In the course of a life, what is a year? If you change nothing, nothing will seem to change a whole lot; so a year might just be a blip in your life’s course.
What if you had had a life filled with bouts of depression – and this was the worst year you’d ever had? What if after creating a beautiful family and living a life most would see as wonderful, you’d come to a point where the pain in your heart was so great that taking a few extra headache pills just so you might not wake to feel it any more was a very temping and pressing solution?
This was where I was: we owned our home, not outright but we were in the market at least. I had the husband, I had two healthy baby girls, but nothing ever seemed to go quite right. My health was all over the place, no energy, major kidney issues and nose bleeds for unknown reasons, headaches and STRESS, STRESS, STRESS. I was at the doctor most weeks – if not for me, then for my children. Our family business was in dire straits, I almost separated from my husband because we were fighting so much about money, as bills were becoming increasingly harder to pay and raising our girls was really getting on top of me. Other than tears, I was always right on the brink of anger and it wouldn’t take much for me to snap and yell at my loved ones.
I’ve gone through bouts of depression throughout my life and always felt very insecure, even though people wouldn’t have thought so because I’m quite outgoing. At this point I would say I was suffering – if not another bout of depression, then a serious case of the baby blues. Was this to be the course of my life – one bout of depression after another?
My depression in the past was one thing. However at this point in life I had two little girls to care for, yet I was struggling to care for myself. My anger and sadness were so out of control that I couldn’t see a positive in the fog that was my life. Plus the guilt that I held for my children and husband seeing me this way was simply another weight to add to my already overbearing load.
One day, in the pits of my despair, my two-year-old daughter Jena climbed into bed beside me and it was a moment I will remember forever. You see, I had been crying and crying for what felt like months, my head was pounding and my pillow soaked from tears. Just then, my daughter, who could barely string two words together at the time, put her hand on my back and said “Mummy, you can stop crying now”. A full sentence from a child who could barely speak two words! It shocked me so much that I thought it had to be a message from somewhere and I knew in my heart it was time to make some massive changes, if not for me, then for my family.
I felt I wanted to set the best example I could for my girls, as it would just kill me to ever see them living with depression and self-esteem issues as I had done most of my life.
That moment seemed to come from out of nowhere and a light switched on within me and I knew that for me to change my life, I totally needed to change my focus. It was as though a small seed was planted that day. For it to flourish, I had to take care of it – so I protected that seed like it was a magic bean and I focused on watering it every day from that moment on.
Then the help came, but not from where I had expected it to. Only a week after I had made a decision to change my focus, I went to Mum’s looking for a book to read – I am an avid reader of sci-fi and fantasy and I’d searched my Mum’s bookshelf many times before, although today was different. There on the shelf was a book with a blue spine and it was standing out so much to me that it seemed to be glowing. It was certainly not my usual read; however I decided to take it home.
Well was I blown away! As I read I felt this book was a confirmation of what I had internally decided only a week ago – wow, another sign! Then out of nowhere an obsession took hold. My every waking moment was focused on bettering myself, but not bettering myself for others – bettering myself for me. I began to meditate, practise yoga, increase my fitness and health, I would act and think positively, no matter the event. I began to know myself and found all of these connections within my life and, as I searched, my knowledge grew as did my own intuitive abilities.
Life began to change; yes there were some instant changes like I was feeling better for longer periods of time and the depression was feeling more like a memory than a way of life. After a few months we had moved away from the family business and we were able to save our home from the banks. Life was looking up, well really, I was looking up at life, as opposed to looking down at it. The world had begun to open up to not only me, but our little family as well. After 12 months life had done a 360° turnaround. I was exercising every day and I felt fantastic, no more sickness. I had started three at-home businesses, my husband had finally found a great job and we were sitting comfortably for the first time in our lives. Our girls were happy and our extended family began to reunite and it felt as if peace had finally found the Filmer home.
From here I began to write. It was always a passion of mine as a child, yet I had let the passion slip in the ebb and flow of life. In 2010 I published my first book, Hidden Path. This title was co-written with a friend of mine who had experienced a similar life change.
I went on to study and I am now a qualified counsellor, a successful author and an intuitive life guide who has now published two new books, Healing Path and Writers Path.
I am just an average woman with only a year 10 school certificate, who lived day to day defending herself in the fight of life, until I just decided to change my focus and really that’s all I did – I decided and then, each and every day thereafter, I kept choosing the same thing. Because of my decision, I have gone on to experience more joy, happiness, wealth and health than I ever knew was possible.
Please know that no matter where you are on your path and who you may have been until now, anything can happen, as all things are possible. I know this from pure life experience; your whole world can change in an instant.
So to answer my earlier question: “In the course of a life, what is a year?” Well if you make some different, but simple, choices a year can change the whole course of your life.
Here is a special little tip from my new book, Healing Path:
Heavy or light?
How do I know in which direction to go when I am at a cross-roads in life? This is a way you can use your feelings to guide you. Look at your options and ask yourself if it makes you feel lighter or if it makes you feel heavier. I’m sure you have used the term ‘to be weighed down’ or ‘it’s like a weight lifted off my shoulders’ and in a way this is what I am referring to.
Bring the thought of what you wish to do to your mind and look to the feeling that it brings. Feel its weight – if it makes you feel light, then it is right.
Kate Filmer is a counsellor, author, intuitive life guide, public speaker, mother, wife and entrepreneur. She has changed her own life from financial, physical and mental deprivation, to self-made success story in all three areas and she continues her quest by aiding others to do the same.